It’s definitely feeling a lot like Winter lately & I love it, I love the whole Winter fashion thing, cozy hats & scarves, deliciously warm jumpers & beautifully huggable coats.
I go through my life living it in auto pilot more than I should. I walk to & from work 99% of the time, earphones in with music playing (can’t live without music). When I actually lift my head up & take a look, which I do quite a lot in the mornings, I love the scenery around me, nature has the best colour palette & the most beautiful of scenes, especially in the Autumn –
I’m thankful for a lot of things in my life & even on doing this list, I’m bound to miss some off it but here goes.
Thing’s I’m thankful for & they’re not only material things either –
YouTube may seem like a strange thing to be thankful for, but I’m incredibly thankful for the youtubers I watch, they make me laugh & bring me a lot of joy.
I’m thankful for a local coffee-house that has a fantastic atmosphere & amazing coffee. As soon as I walk in to my local Nero, I feel like I could literally sink into one of the sofas with my favourite coffee, take off my shoes, kick my legs up onto the sofa & sit there reading a book or writing blog posts on my laptop for hours. I’m even more thankful when the right staff are on shift. Hehe.
A company that allows me to be silly sometimes
The company I work for, even though an incredibly serious one, one needed to do an excellent job at all times because it’s a hospitality & retail company on our local uni campus, is more than willing to allow staff to get involved with silliness when the occasion calls for it, we’ve just had Children in Need & our company raised £1902, our highest amount yet, everyone got dressed up & a lot of people baked cakes & cookies, not me though, I can’t bake for toffee, I spent money instead of energy & bought cakes & tray bakes to sell, there were also lots of raffles going on around campus. I get dressed up at every opportunity –
I’m so grateful for the weekends, I have a fulltime job & a lot of the time in the week, feel like I don’t have enough time to do the stuff I’d love to do, so I often don’t bother starting anything but I REALLY need to snap out of that, at the weekend, I get all that extra time to do things I want to do, albeit, I don’t do it all but I do some. I take my hat off to parents cause I don’t know how you find all those extra thousands of hours each week to do all the parenting stuff that needs doing!
My sense of smell
I explore the world around me like the whole world should, with my eyes wide open & my nose twitching in the breeze but I should embrace it with open arms like so many people do. I love the fact that I can smell the changing seasons, I love the smell of Autumn. Me & Richard went to a christmas fayre about 4 weeks ago & Richard got some Winter spiced fudge, I’m not exaggerating when I say this but when I smelt inside the bag, I immediately teared up, the smell was christmas to me & how thee perfect christmas candle would smell, I SOOOOO WISH I COULD HAVE TASTED IT!
Richard struggles with his eyes, he had keratoconus when he was younger which nearly blinded him, he’s had cornea transplants on both his eyes meaning, his corneas are not the ones he was born with, he had rejection & nearly lost one of his eyes, the surgeon sown it shut & wrote it off but as it turned out, he did manage to regain his sight in his eye. Right now, he has a squint in one eye & a growth on his other cornea, he’s having surgery on his squint this week. I’m so lucky & thankful that I have the eyes I have, yes, I may need glasses to read certain prints but I don’t have any other issues & I can see fine, I’m incredibly thankful that I can see the world around me.
My family & friends
I’m so thankful for both my parents still being alive (so many [too many] of the people I know [Richard included] have lost one or both parents & it’s shite, everyday must be a struggle, I hear it gets easier with time & yes, maybe it does but Richard still breaks his darling heart over his fathers death, I know he thinks about his dad every day & often says he wishes I’d known him but what he don’t realise is, I do know him, I know him because of the things I’ve heard about him & way people talk about him when he’s in the conversation, maybe it will get easier but only with each breath at a time). I have a mad bag of family members each with their own annoyances (which we all have some of) & I love them dearly but the thought of having to tolerate them all together at the same time……………….oh boy, now then, I feel the need to vacate the planet, hehe, we all feel the need to be heard more than the next person & we all have a funny story to tell that simply MUST be told at exactly the same moment! My friends are crazy & I adore them, I know that should I need to, I can call upon them at any time for anything.
My darling Richard
Hhmmm……………..where do I start with my darling Richard??? I’m thankful for him because he’s me in a male body except he’s a more disciplined version of me, he’s the me that I wish I could be better at, he’s got more self-control when it comes to the things I haven’t, like FOOD! Hehe. I’m thankful for the love & patience he shows me daily, for the laughs we share together. I’m thankful for him showing me what love is supposed to be like, effortless & just being with each other, sitting in silence if the occasion calls for it. Although, he can talk the hind legs of a donkey, did I mention he’s the male version of me?? Hehe. I tell him I love him daily but I don’t think I say thank you often enough, oh yes, I use my manners (most of the time, I’m not perfect) but I don’t thank him for just being here enough.
To my darling Richard
I’m so thankful that I have all of my limbs, I’m an extremely touchy feely person, I love all the feels & thrive on showing affection, I love hugs, given &/or received. I watch my poor mother struggle to get around the house daily in a wheelchair & it breaks my heart when I think about how active she used to be (that’s why I don’t think about it very much). My body aches constantly & begs me at times to stop eating the way that I do & I MUST listen to it & soon, one of my worst fears is that I get arthritis like my mum & end up in a chair!
My state of mind
I’m a positive person most of the time & I try so hard to be a happy person, which is easy a lot of the time, the problem I have is that I tend to allow people &/or situations impact on my mood, which, in turn, dictates how my day goes, especially if I’m at work. I do try to block out the negative & a lot of the time I manage it, sometimes, you’ll even find me laughing at the negativity people try to dump onto me. Doing a thankful list brings home that some shit just isn’t that important to me & I’m going to try harder to not let people & situations influence how my whole day goes, the problem I have is that when I’m in a bad mood or if I’m unhappy, I can’t just switch it off & if I try to swallow it, it really is like I’m trying to swallow a brick but I’m getting better though. I tend to wear my emotions like a badge. I don’t suffer from depression & don’t have bad anxiety, I have slight anxiety but not bad enough to go on about. I’m happy a lot of the time & at peace a lot of the time.
I’m incredibly thankful for my health, yes I’m overweight & my body hurts because of that & because my sugar consumption has gone up over the past couple of months but other than that (which is bad enough I know), I’m good.
There’s going to be lots I’ve missed off this list but I truly hope you have things to be thankful for this week.
I hope you have an amazing week.
Bye for now.