Morning lovelies,
(updated post)
I have no idea why I decided to do this post, there’s no reason for it & no meaning behind it, the idea just popped into my head! I don’t very often get ideas just pop in my head & I’ve had so many in the past that I’ve just ignored because I thought they would be to boring & not what people want to read but I’m not worrying about it anymore, I’m just going to post what I want to post & what I’d like to read, I’m incredibly nosy, so I love personal posts from bloggers. Hehe.
Things you may not know about me
I love Gods creation.
I don’t understand why people get so worked up about faith & why people can’t just let people believe what they want to, why are some people so determined to deprive people of a little bit of happiness? I sometimes think there’s a little pagan inside me screaming to get out but then wonder if God is actually real, here’s the thing, I struggle to believe in God because of the following – I think it’s incredibly arrogant to think that one being alone created the earth as we know it, I’m more inclined to think that it was numerous beings each doing their bit. Also, Christianity isn’t the oldest faith, paganism is older but the only proof we have of either is, here say, what people believe & books. If you believe something has power, it will have power over you. I do believe that everyone should have some kind of belief system & me, well, I haven’t found one I’m 100% comfortable with. I say all this & yet in my sitting room, you’ll find 3 bibles that are Richards & about 15 books on paganism that belong to me. Make of that what you will. I suppose if you need to see something in order to believe in it then it can hardly be called a belief system???
I was going to delete the above paragraph but decided to keep it in because it shows how much things have changed since I originally posted this. I became a Christian in 2018 & now know why people don’t just let people believe what they want to believe without having a little feedback to include. I now know that God has always been, is & always will be very much real, with us always & loves us unconditionally. Needless to say the pagan books went into the bin! Even when proofreading this, I really wanted to delete the above paragraph!
I can’t be quiet to save my life, even it I’m trying to be, I can’t talk quietly most of the time & trust me, you’ll know when I’m looking for something cause it’ll sound like there’s a hurricane in the room, the silly thing is, the quieter I try to be, the louder I get. Hehe.
On occasion, I can speak before my brain engages & that can be incredibly painful to endure on both ends!
I love history, although, at school, I don’t actually remember liking any subject, I remember liking some teachers more than others but not subjects, I did do better in some subjects than others. History fascinates me so much, I think it’s amazing to think that people have walked where I’ve walked centuries before me, I mean, that is just mind-blowing.
This may be intense but I would risk my life to save those I love but ask for a bite of what I’m eating & although, I may smile sweetly & offer you a piece, I’m secretly wanting to cut out your tongue for daring to ask me, when it comes to food, I’m the most selfish person you’ll ever meet! I saved Richard 2 little free from chocolate logs but as I’m writing this, I’m eating them. Hehe. – I’m not that bad now (2026) but I still don’t like sharing my food!
I like things to go the way I planned them & if they don’t I can get stressed & anxious, but I can put a face on for most occasions & only those who know me best would know. Hehe.
I’m not the most patient of people, I want everything yesterday, I hate having to wait around for people or things & it’s even worse when I’ve got to rely on that/them before I can do something or be somewhere.
I think one of my worst things is that I struggle to forgive easily & I truly wish I could because it can be crushing when you really want to forgive someone but you just can’t, especially when it’s someone you love, I have learnt that it does get easier with time. – I’m a lot better at this since becoming a Christian, Jesus has taught me how to forgive quickly & because of that, I live a happier life.
One thing I hate in life is looking stupid, some people can just laugh it off but I REALLY hate it, especially when it’s because of someone else.
I can be found messing around on occasion & being silly, I don’t do serious most of the time & enjoy a good laugh, I couldn’t stand to spend most of my days with people who aren’t prepared to have a giggle on occasion & are opposed to some silliness! – just one of the things I love about Jesus is the fact that He had a sense of humour.
On 1st impression some will think I’m stand offish & on the odd occasion, I’ve thought of myself as being down right rude & trust me, on those occasions, I’ve given myself a jolly good telling off, my parents didn’t raise a rude, ignorant, un-thoughtful woman! You may think I’m not a very approachable person on 1st meeting me, I’ve tried over the years to break this but although I’m a lot better than I was years ago, I’ve still not broken the habit of coming across that way, I wish I could be my best self at all times but I just can’t do it, some days I’m full of beans & the whole world is full of rainbows, fluffy clouds & beautiful people but on the other days, they are full of rain clouds, orcs & the world can go stuff itself! Knowing this about myself has allowed me to be less judgmental about others upon 1st meeting them.
Those who take the time to get to know me, know that your 1st impression of me is not always the one you’ll be left with, some people say your 1st impression of people is the correct one, well, let you be the one to inform you, that is an incorrect evaluation, I too used to think that way & it’s only through getting to know myself better that I’ve realised that 1st impressions don’t count & never to judge a book by its cover!
I’m selfish with my time, I could quite happily just sit & watch movie marathons for days on end (usually Harry Potter or Twilight) & be quite content to choose to do that over going pub or around town! Some people may think I’m boring & quite frankly, I don’t care if they do, I know what I like. If however, I’m offered a night of dancing or a good film at the cinema, that’s a different matter, me & Richard have just signed up for the unlimited card at our local cineworld & I’ve already booked us lots of upcoming films, I can’t wait. – I’m not as selfish with my time like I used to be & one of my favourite ways to spend my time nowadays is talking about Jesus.
My favourite season is Autumn with Winter a very close 2nd, I love the last 4 months & the 1st month of the year. Since posting this, I’ve come to love all 4 seasons for their own reasons, I mean, how can you not love a season that includes flowers in full bloom, freshly grown food & BBQ season??
I get giddy about christmas & I surprise myself by being secretly glad I don’t have children because that would cost us a fortune & I don’t think my parents would appreciate me turning their home into santas grotto in the middle of a winter wonderland in November! Hehe. Come to think of it, if we had kids, I would have no restraint. Hehe. Everything happens for a reason.
I used to think I was quite shy & although, I don’t do public speaking very well & blush at the easiest of public speaking conversations, I actually realised that I’m not shy in a localised conversation & I love to be a person people can go to for whatever the need may be & I’m actually quite a forward person, but I don’t love being the centre of attention for anything, I don’t however appreciate someone else getting the credit for something I’ve done but then, I don’t like anyone taking the credit for something that someone else has done.
I am a person who is bothered about people who don’t like me without justification.
I can’t stand back stabbers, if you’ve got something to say, then say it. I try very hard not to jump on someones person bashing wagon & 99% of the time, I won’t & when you think I’m on it with you, you may notice that I’m actually not saying a lot.
You won’t hear a lie come out of my mouth (99% of the time, I’m not perfect you know), I’ve got myself into trouble a few times cause I refuse to lie & if you asked me to lie for you, it could cost you our relationship…so it better be worth the ask. I also will not deliberately name people to get them into trouble, if I’m name dropping to you, then I’m ranting, I trust you & don’t expect it to be repeated, I would never give a name to someone I didn’t trust when I’m having a rant, the only time I will is when I’m spreading praise but I also refuse to let people think I’ve done something wrong or made a mistake when I haven’t, if it’s my fault, don’t worry, you’ll know but if it’s not, I’ll say so but you wouldn’t get the culprits name from my lips unless I slip up & blurt it out mid rant about being blamed (I’ve done that before & the guilt is horrifying).
I feel deeply other peoples pain & suffering, I can’t bare to watch the news or read the papers, there’s never anything worth celebrating nowadays, I’m extremely sensitive to peoples feelings & emotions & can pick up on things easily. The words ‘I’m fine’ cover a multitude of pains. I’m an incredible listener & the strongest secret keeper you’ll ever find. You could tell me your troubles & I’d listen without opinion or judgement & you could cry on my shoulder whilst I held you up & in that moment, I’m 100% yours unconditionally. I feel hurt & sadness easily. I’ve been reduced to tears at work before now because of something I read in the newspaper. I can read a room easily & pick on people, usually, as soon as they look at me.
I would not want to look at your face or see your revolting black heart, if you lie about me, blame me for something I’ve not done, deliberately make me look stupid or hurt anyone I care about in any way.
My 1st reaction is very rarely my real reaction, like I said before, I react before my brain engages, the amount of times I’ve been asked to do something & moaned about it or just sighed (I’m good at that), just to end up doing it anyway, with a smile! That’s one of the reasons people find me unapproachable but when they know me better, they know how my brain works! Hehe.
I struggle with starting something if I know I’m not going to be able to give it my all, I’m not a perfectionist but I struggle to see the point in doing a job if you’re not going to or can’t (for whatever reason) do it well.
I suffer from a little OCD with silly things like checking locked doors, I mean, not once but like 3 odd times, I once got to one road away from home after work, only to walk all the way back because I was convinced I hadn’t locked the door…I had, it was locked!
I’m sick of being fat but don’t know what to do about it!!! When it comes to food, I’ve got the will power of someone after a bottle of JD on a night out passing the kebab house! Hehe.
My favourite thing in life is love, laughter, happiness & togetherness, I love seeing & feeling love & happiness.
My favourite style of film is fantasy (Harry Potter, Twilight & the like), with period dramas coming an incredibly close 2nd.
This is my ideal style – Fashion & Accessories I Love
I hope you have an amazing week.
Bye for now.
♥
Sarah 